Change and the unknown

It’s Thursday morning.  That’s not all that big a deal.  Thursdays have been one of my days off for almost my entire time at my present job.  Thursdays and Fridays.  Those were my Saturday and Sunday.

Marvina on the other hand, her days off have always been Fridays and Saturdays.  So for the better part of six years now we’ve had to settle with just one day off together.  There were brief periods when we didn’t have any days off together.  Those times sucked.

This is all changing this week.  I was given an opportunity to change my work schedule so that I too could have Fridays and Saturdays off too.  I took it.  It means that I have to leave the work area I’ve grown to love and move to another.  The pace of work in my new location is much slower and there are a lot of unknowns.  Some are technical unknowns, work flow, staffing, mostly easy stuff to master.  One big unknown is how I will do moving from a high velocity multi-tasking work environment to one that from the outside looks to be just shy of comatose?  I don’t know.

Neither do I care that much.  For the first time at this job I’m getting a full weekend off with my wife.  Two whole days!  That may not sound like that big a deal but for me it is.  We’ve been talking about what we want to do with the new time.  Stuff for ourselves, time with the kids and grandkids.  So many possibilities and so many unknowns.

Friday I have an appointment with my Oncologist.  It’s supposed to be a routine follow-up.  Of course, it’s more of a crap shoot.  I’ll go and get my vitals checked, then sit down with the doctor and review how I’ve been feeling since we last visited.  There have been some things going on that concern me.  It may be that I’ll walk out deemed all okay.  Might be I’ll be shunted into a hurried CT exercise to see if something’s going on inside of me.

Unknowns.  I don’t care much for not being able to know what the future holds.  Don’t misunderstand, I do love the unknown of a new day.  What I don’t like though is not knowing whether a new day will have a dark cloud marring the promise of it all.

No matter what though, I will have two days off with the woman I love.  More time to give her everything I can that she deserves.  I want a lot more two days.  I want more time.  If change can give me that then I’ll embrace it.  I just fear that unknown change that might take time away.